1 year anniversary...God's call

Been a while since I had a 1 year anniversary for anything but this is a big one for me.  One year ago this month a lot of things started becoming very clear.  As I had wrestled with God for a while over some questions, the one big question being, what now?, He put something before me.  It was fuzzy then and still fuzzy on details even now but nonetheless He put it out there and after much praying and seeking and talking with family the bottom line was not whether I had all the details but whether I would be obedient.  I had many fears about saying yes however the biggest fear of all was saying no and being disobedient to Him.  I've learned that many answers don't come until we take that 1st step of faith.  Many answers have come, many still remain a mystery.  What is no longer a mystery is that He has told me to write.  My 1st response was I already do that.  I keep my own journal.  I blog.  But that didn't seem to be it.  My 2nd response was, I have nothing to write about.  Well, boy did He change that.  Soon He began giving me LOTS to write about.  Bottom line is I still don't know what form this will all take. All I know is that I'm writing what He has placed on my heart and how He is leading me through His Word.  Much of the call and the long story has been written which is why I'm not diving into many details here.  It may be a blog.  It may be a bible study for a small group or another type of group.  It may be a book.  It may be for noone to ever read but my family or it may be way out there one day.  Whatever God decides to do with it, is great by me. Like I said, my biggest fear is not where this goes but whether I obey Him or not. Everything else is up to Him.  He knows that I'm limited in every way.  But I know He has no limitations.  I also know Him to be the God of immeasurably more. I know the journey He has taken us on over the past several years but also the journey of our life together with Him.  I know that there's much to tell that can be used to encourage others whether in ministry or not.  I know He has purpose in everything He has brought us through and I know how much He has shown us and taught us.  I also believe that it's not just for us alone.  I know that if it can serve to help others then there's greater purpose and more glory for Him.  There's also much of life we have lived with Him as we have ministered and raised a family in the midst of it all.  So whatever He wants to do and however He wants to work, I'm just along for the ride.  I know it's been an incredible ride so far and He has proved Himself faithful over and over again.  I'm so thankful for my family's support and for many along the way who have encouraged us to share our story but also through the years the many who have encouraged me to write more.  If you're willing, I would love your prayers.  We can see together where all of this goes. I do know, I have to get back on the blog.  I've missed it but been busy writing in the notebook.  Just need to be better at multitasking!!